well.well.well.
LemMe see what i have..
i am currently stuck in between two high mountains.
trying to choose what’s better and what’s not for me.
my heart has been crushed and pounded by the powerful grudge of life’s lies and promises.
im missin someone i shouldnt be missing..
and now,
i am more confused than ever.
i need my drugs..
i need to be numb…
i have been a little busy dealing with my own little world lately.
i have been up from a pesky downfall, yet again here i am surviving the cruelty of life’s do’s and dont’s.
i have been blessed for so many things,
i have been given unforgettable gifts.
and i have encountered unforgivable words.
so here i am right now..
writing on my blog.
my mind’s been coiled and hastily untangled.
i don’t remember half of what i’m posting.
but one thing for sure..
it’s a little peek from my soul.
i’m trying to reach to some important people
who little did they know has been missing
a great part of my life’s story.
late last night,staring blankly on my ceiling.watching my shadow sway as the air blow from the open window and tilt my candle’s glow.
i asked myself…
why did i end up here?
where i am right now?
do i deserve to be deserted?
i thought,
i have been so strong for a long time…and if ever i gave up,would i end up here?
would i learn?
a sudden rush of cold sweats and a slow warm tears started falling.
i am longing for my mother’s warm caress..for my little niece’s sweet voice and for my father’s wisdom.
sadness filled my heart and loneliness occupied my soul.
i closed my eyessssss….
and drifted away to my long undesirable nightmare….
to be continued…=P
oh my god.
it’s been a while.
haven’t usin this blog.
there’s soo much things
goin on inside my mind
suddenly my world got inside out,
everything changed already
i can’t hardly tell who is who.
which is which.
awww.is there something new with me?
noope..
same shiiiit..
hehehhee
oh and.
what the heck.
here somes nothing….’
i am riskin my relationship with my boyfriends on the line.
cause suddenle my frea ex.pop out from nowhere.
and knowing how my boyfriend wil react,
makes me umm sorta scurred.
but i know i can handle this..
im a tough bird remember???
hmm..what do we know?
yea,i am definitely inlove with my boyfriend right now=)
awww i mean my fiancee..
hahahah
oh well aint engaged yet,but i am committed to my babie,
my god babe,
you don’t know how mych i love you.
and i wil always will.
even though i always start all the fights…
even though im kinda moody and stuffs
your always there,,,
im happy with you
i will always remember all the mornings..
to open my eyes each morning.seein the love of my life by my side,
the curves you always mange to put on my grumpy face on my bad days…
the laughin trip and our oh socalled pintas moments.
your the best my brian!
my one and onkly love of a lifetime,,
hahah
soo cornny.but i don’t care.
i still love him.
aww whatever..
hmm?what else??
ummm.
im still broke.
hahaha
somebody lend me some shiit,jk
im livin the life=)
i still rule pa.
<<one hot chic,no one can dethrone me.!
i thought i learn something from LOVE..
wahahha
yeah i did learn something..
but hey..
why am i like this?…
tangna im not player..
hehehe
im sooo confused..
cno ba talaga?!…
lmfao..
freedom of speech
"it is better to be hated for what i am rather than be loved by who i’m not"
take yer mask off..show yourself there’s nothing to be afraid of
lol..
hate me cause you aint me(quote ni bestie)
yeah right..
cause everyone’s uniquely engineered individual
all has his/her own identity.
gotta problem with me?!
deal with it b*atcH
<oNeLuV<
hope it helps you realize things….enjoy reading! =)
1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him
away.
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him
stay.
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his
behavior.
3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a
man’s
character, leave him alone.
4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you
from heartache.
5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship
that’s not meant to be.
6. Never live your life for a man before you find
what makes you truly happy.
7. If a relationship ends because the man
was not treating you as you deserve then heck, no
you an’t "be friends." A friend wouldn’t mistreat a
friend.
8. Have faith in God regarding your relationship,
but don’t let faith make you stupid. God does
things decent and in order.
9. Don’t settle.
10. Don’t stay because you think "it will get
better."
You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for
staying when things are not better.
11. The only person you can control in
a relationship is you.
12. There’s only one ‘reason’ a man dumps
you; he doesn’t want you.
13. Always put yourself and your happiness
first.
14. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats
you. If something bothers you, speak up.
15. Like from the show fancy and the city, if
he doesn’t call, he just isn’t that interested.
16. Know when to cut the cord, don’t be
strung along.
17. Don’t fall for the "IM CONFUSED ROLE".
Remove
yourself from the situation to LET HIM
FIGURE THINGS
OUT (but don’t wait for him,
MOVE
ON
).
18. If you want to have a clue as to how he
will treat
you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his
family and friends (not just mom).
19. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is
a man,
nothing more nothing less.
20. Actions speak louder than words.
21. Never let a man define who you are.
22. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
23. Just because he says he loves you,
doesn’t
mean that he won’t hurt you and it doesn’t
mean
that you are meant to be with him.
24. Know that you deserve to be the number
one
person in the life of the #1 person in your life.
25. NEVER settle for a man who keeps you
waiting for
nothing. Use your brain.
26. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying
to
make someone unavailable-available,
someone
ungiving-giving, and someone unloving-
loving.
27. A man will only treat you the way you
ALLOW him to
treat you.
28. If you don’t love yourself…you can’t love
anyone else.
29. You cannot mend someone else’s
broken heart all the time.
30. You need time to heal between
relationships…there is nothing cute about
baggage…deal with your issues before
pursuing a
new relationship.
31. You should never look for someone to
COMPLETE
you…a relationship consists of
two WHOLE individuals…look for someone
complimentary…not supplementary..
32. NEVER give more in a relationship than
you are
getting out of it.
33. When actions and words conflict, believe
the
actions. Respond to the actions.
34. Don’t fall for the "I’m not the loving
type"…when a man loves you there is nothing
in
this world (within reason) that he wouldn’t do
for you.
35. Make him miss you sometimes…when a
man
always know where you are, and you’re
always readily
available to him he takes it for granted..
36. Know when ’tis time to hold on when to let go.
When it’s time to let go; let go.
37. Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t
give you EVERYTHING that you need. Keep
him in
your radar but get to know others.
38. Never believe a man that tells u he wants
to be
with you, while he’s with someone else, - if he
wanted to be with you, he would make it
happen more
sooner than later.
39. Don’t be a man’s DOORMAT , make him
open the door for you, because a real man
would do
this on his own.
40. There is someone out there worthy to be
in
your life, let out the trash so he can come in.
HAPPINESS is a VERB!! and not an
announcement…
why do we torture ourselves with love?
we hope and wish for that special someone for so long,
and it hurts so much to see them love someone else.
when we finally get the person of our dreams,
they leave sooner or later,gone from your life
like a feather floating away in the wind,
never to be seen again.
we cry endlessly for so many nights,
remembering their smiles,
their kind words,
their warm embrace.
you can’t help but feel joy when you think
of their sweet kisses or that special
feeling you get whenever you see them.
you dream of them and waking up smiling,
until you realize it was only a dream..
and the closest thing you have from that person..
are the memories and the times you’ve shared
that made it all,worthwhile..lol
When you think of your past love, you may view it
as a failure.
But when you find a new love, you view the past as
a teacher.
In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who
won or who lost.
What is important is you know when to hold on
and when to let go!
You know you really love someone when you want
him or her to be happy, even if his or her
happiness means that you’re not part of it.
Everything happens for the best. If the person you
love doesn’t love you back, don’t be afraid to love
someone else again, for you’ll never
know unless you give it a try.
You’ll never love a person you love unless you risk
for love.
Love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt, you
don’t learn how to love.
Love doesn’t hurt all the time, though the hurting is
still there to test you and to help you grow.
Don’t find love, let love find you.
That’s why it’s called falling in love because you
don’t force yourself to fall.
You just fall.
You cannot finish a book without closing its
chapters. If you want to go
on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the
pages.
Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by
a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we
are always learning, discovering and
growing.
The greatest irony of love is letting go when you
need to hold on and holding on when you need to
let go.
We lose someone we love only when we are
destined to find someone else who can love u even
more than we can love ourselves.
On falling out of love, take some time to heal and
then get back on the horse.
But don’t ever make the same mistake of riding the
same one that threw you the first time.
To love is to risk rejections; to live is to risk
dying, to hope is to risk
failure.
But risk must be taken because the greatest
hazard in life is risking nothing!
To reach for another is to risk involvement, to
expose your feelings is to expose true self; to love
is to risk not to be loved in return.
How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be
constant but not too persistent, share and never be
unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but
never keep the pain.
Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can
carve wonderful
images into the soul that always last for a lifetime.
Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling.
It should inspire you and give you joy and strength.
But sometimes the things that give you joy can
also hurt you in the end.
Loving people means giving them the freedom that
they choose to be and where they choose to be.
For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy
days and fruitless years, you should give thanks,
for you know, that these were the things
which helped you grow.
Loving someone means giving him the freedom to
find his way, whether it leads towards you or away
from you.
Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be
taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then
you’ll experience the fullness of humanity
and that is love.
Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire
and tear you apart.
Only love can make you cry and only love knows
why. If you’re not
ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk, if
you’re not
ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall
in love.
There was a time in our lives when we became
afraid to fall in love because every time we do, we
get hurt, then I figured that’s why it’s
called falling in love.
When you decide to love, allow it to grow.
When you promise to love, refuse to let it die!
so yeah,here i am..makin another blog..of which i am not certain i can update everytime i use friendster..
oh.im to here share something..
things i learned from my past..lol
isn’t it great to have someone by your side when you feel alone and empty?
isn’t it sacred when you cry and let out that anger within your soul?
isn’t it soulful when you try to ease someone’s burden?
and we were all greatful having them..
but sometimes..
we just dont realize those things..
the things we have gone through..
the moments when we were all dying..
the time when all we can think of is how to be on top of the others..
we were bein selfish sometimes.
that all we can think of are for our own benefits..
and we leave some bode behind as if we don’t care..
don’t you feel bad when you knew someone being betrayed infront of you?..
there are two good sides of bein "taklesa"
lol..this is my point coz i know..i am takles..
hahah im just sharing anyway..
1)i can confront someone..who’s making fun of another person and just talk to him.her straight..without a doubt..but atleast im sure i know what i’m doin and i have enough reasons to do that.
2)i can just knocked a person who’s acting sooo stupid..making fool of herself/himself..making that stories..make believe reasons and stuff..lol
grow up chic s and guys..
it’s hard to deal with confrontations but its fer yer own good..
hahaha..
so..i just want you to understand that i am not a mean person..
i’m just bein realistic..coz thas what i see..thas what i know..
i am just a reflection of what you show me..
be greatful to yer friends..
cause they only tell you the truth..
what they observe what they see.and what they hear..
remember truth hurts..
but how would you know?
if no one dares to tell you so…
grow up..
think outside the box..
and for once…
"LISTEN…"
